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Thursday, December 13, 2007


Time:11:59 AM


Ytd was one heck of a uneasy day.. i went out wif my fren for coffee, den his gf joined us. At first it was ok..i was fine..thinkin hw to write my story.. after a cup of venti coffee nut latte (which i might was delicious ^^) we went to walk round cold storage. i needed to check out e food stuff.. grilled salmon...steak..lamb?..etc.. i'll be bored during e hols.. so need to cook. lalalala.
anyway...at first was ok.. we 3 walked ard. den i realized im like..very "outstanding". they were holdin hands..laughin..so happy.. in a way i realized they are damn fortunate.. they found and gained so much.. haix...just seeing them like tht..i became so down.. i wanted to be just like them.. so happy, so fortunate. unfortunately for me... haix... i really din noe hw to act ard them. super uneasy.. super uncomfortable. its nth personal.. it's just me.. i guess e only gd thing tht came out of this would probably be e fact i suddenly had the inspiration.. i knew wad to write.. it wont be romance, neither will it be horror.. smth much more.. e only prob is tht i have to find e courage to start.. bugger.. =/

i noe i always seem sooo emo.. so i understand if ppl get tired of me every while. i try nt too la. but everywhere i turn, smth pops in front of my face. thk God hols is just a day away for me. i can use e time to think, to cook, to distract myself. im going to have a proper slp.. to get out more too. A short time is all i need n i swear i'll become stronger X)