Sanctuary

2009-08-25T09:04:00.001+08:00

Yikes... theres so much dust here. lol. In case any of u are wondering... i kinda moved to lj just recently. its like a private thingy. so...if u want to view it, tell me (:

2009-03-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

Name: McMillan
Date: 3/7/2009
Colorgenics Number: 70431265

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.

2009-02-09T00:35:00.003+08:00

I still got some chains I have to let go. After everything that is let go, I can finally be at peace? haha. For now, I got things to consider about..

2009-02-03T21:46:00.001+08:00

I need to practice!!! PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE!!! haha. I love my Kate (:

2009-01-30T16:11:00.003+08:00

300th post!!!!

Hmm.. new year was alright. Eve day went to grandma hse to have reunion dinner, the next day went to my grandma's hse again for lunch den home to sleeepppp. Later at night had to go my 'sway guo'(meaning youngest aunt) hse to eat dinner. After that went to nick's hse for mahjong session^^ damn funny la. Zee was hilarious. BE LIKE WATER MY FRIEND!!!

The next day nothing much lehhs. Bored. Den...just ytd went to Piang's hse for another mahjong session. BUT!!! only had me and him... The rest couldn't make it last min... T.T Luckily Tina came to save the day. LOL! she can play so not so bad. 3 ppl. Oso another laugh like mad mahjong session.

I realize ar... this new year laugh a lot sia. Oh yar! Before gng to Piang's hse met with daughter. Gave her ang bao :) Must study kiang kiang hor. My day was quite good :)

mm... I don't wish for something to happen all over again... I won't be able to take it :(

2009-01-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

Haiz.. Today was supposed to go pub.. To drink.. Zzz... Guess not gonna happen any time soon :/ oh Baileys Baileys, where art thou Baileys... lol..

2009-01-22T21:53:00.002+08:00

Tml supposingly go to pub. Thot can drink all the troubles away.. But dunnoe leh... gotta see whether the guys still wanna go not.. Zzz..

2009-01-20T19:28:00.002+08:00

Haiz... I really want to talk.. You were to only one I could talk to so openly and just be comfortable about it.. recently found out something and its has been playing around in my mind.. I really miss talking to you.. I know you're busy.. so I shall wait till you're more free.. oh well.. ):

2009-01-18T18:01:00.001+08:00

Bought my clothes le!!! But not my hoodies.. ): I need cash now...

2009-01-16T19:15:00.001+08:00

I need someone to accompany me to buy clothes.. Its boring to go alone :/

2009-01-16T14:38:00.003+08:00

"Si la musique être les aliments d'amour, jouez sur;
Donnez-moi l'excès de cela, cela, surfeiting,
L'appétit peut tomber malade et mourir ainsi.
Cet effort de nouveau! il avait une chute mourant:
O, il est venu sur mon oreille comme le son doux,
Cela respire sur une banque de violets,
Le vol et l'offre de l'odeur! Assez; non plus:
'Tis pas si doux maintenant qu'il était auparavant.
O l'esprit d'amour! comment l'art rapide et frais vous,
Cela, malgré votre capacité
Receiveth comme la mer, le zéro entre là,
De que la validité et le terrain soe'er,
Mais les chutes dans l'abaissement et le prix bas,
Même dans une minute : si complet de formes est sophistiqué
Que cela seul soit haut magnifique."

ARGH!! My wound keeps on opening :/ cos itchy so unknowingly just scratch den the scab will break. ARGH. like that how to make the skin grow... annoying. GRRR... anyway... I pray with all my heart that my dear daughter can go poly. GOOD LUCK!!! X))

Je vous ai donné une chance, vous a donné l'espoir. Ne moi décevez pas.

2009-01-13T14:36:00.005+08:00

Still in sch.. Zzz.. lesson is a big boring thing today. Ms Chew not here. Sadded ): cannot learn properly. Got some faci that looks neither here nor there. If you know what I mean =x *yawns* tired la.. Later still got skit to do.. wtf..

"I'm trying my very best to help you. Finding all the ways to help you. Don't be sad anymore. Right now, find the way to make things right. No more fooling around. You are smart. I know (: so cheer up. Remember, you CAN do it. Never say you can't and never give up. Not now. Cheer up!! X)"

On another note...something else bothered me today. Tch... annoyed :/

2009-01-12T19:09:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!! The wound on my finger keeps on splitting open. Why? Cos its in such a place that wiping my hand touches it, stretching my finger also touches it. In other words.. For a small wound, it knows how to hurt me. haha. Hmm...

For you:
Don't cry. Don't be sad. I know the end isn't what you expected. You feel sad and so do I. Irregardless of what it is, don't give up kay? Take the time to consider carefully your choices. Please don't decide too hastily. Talk to me alright? I want to help you as much as I can. Take care.

2009-01-11T19:24:00.002+08:00

I n n o c e n c e. . .

Zzz.. I realize that talking about certain things can make me depress again. HOWEVER, its only for awhile. I guess no matter how long it takes, you still will feel a little sad over it. Oh well... lucky it only lasts the day or less. I don't feel so bad over it now. Guess cos I'm looking for answers that might end this one and for all. Once my answer/s are found... what reason will I have left? Hmm...

2009-01-10T19:01:00.002+08:00

Today RP open house damn sian. Out of 8 hours we only performed twice. Nice hor? lol. On my way to school today, the weather and sky was damn nice leh. While walking I closed my eyes (madness!!!), and breathed in the deep fresh air. haha. damn shuang. =P

This is a meal voucher. looks not bad hor. Quite nice design *ahem*

My finger's skin kana cut off by the zipper of the damn luggage bag :/

After awhile, It started to bleed. See the red spot? haha.

All in all...quite tiring today.

2009-01-10T06:17:00.002+08:00

mm... After reading awhile... I guess I really think too much.. over-reacted and stuff.. after awhile of thinking last night.. I'm more than cfm It totally gone. Cos "L" always start from a "C". And from there develops. for me to use "L" so fast is seriously my mistake. I could swear to you that its all over if u want. Starting today, I will forget all that has happened. There is no more feeling. Just to let you know. Hope that things will be better. If i ever use the "L" again, it will just be sibling only. Sompah. Okay la. Hope you understand. Oh yea.. I also wanna apologise bout yesterday. That one also my fault.

I hope you read this.

2009-01-09T19:19:00.004+08:00

Take a look at the photos. Does it seem wrong somehow? YES. Cos it fried hot CHICK. Not CHICKEN. So when translated..

炸美人

炸美人面

2009-01-09T08:43:00.003+08:00

Today - Need to stay back
Sat - Need to be in sch from 9.30am to 6pm for school open house...
Sun - Commissioning
Mon - Need to stay back for rehearsal...again...
Tue - SOH day. Need to perform... again... till 6pm... again...

Wtf. Have to go home late almost everyday. F*ck. ARGH. STRESS. TIRED >.<

Daddy, where are you? Daddy? Can we talk please?

2009-01-08T14:07:00.001+08:00

2009-01-07T14:55:00.001+08:00

This is a nice song. Damn catchy quite nice. Lol. Today the open house skit keep on playing so it keeps on playing in my head. HAHAHA.

2009-01-07T08:02:00.003+08:00

RAWR!!! TODAY DAMN BAD ARRHHHH!!! WOKE UP ALREADY GOT SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED. MY MUM FLICK THE BEDSHEET THEN MY SPECS FLY!!!!! WA LAO. FIRST THING WHEN I OPEN MY EYES SEE THAT. THEN, ARGUE WITH MY MOTHER. BUAY TAHAN. FIRST THING LIKE THAT. BAD MOOD ARRR!!! RAWR!!! >:/

2009-01-06T20:09:00.003+08:00

Today damn hectic... Haiz... Firstly, I din go school, I did not take my exam today either neither did i go to my full dress rehearsal... Den while out, found out younger bro got fever. Rushed back to buy him leng yang. I Fucking cross the road nearly kana bang den some more miss my bus. cabbed back instead. Bro temp was bad. Now ok le i think. Mum brought him to doc.. haiz... Sia la.. today and ytd so drama... Such bad days...

2009-01-06T06:47:00.003+08:00

*yawns* haven wake up yet..zzz.. Last night din sleep well. Backache, headache, everywhere ache >.< style="font-style: italic;">un.......

Score -
Jerks : 7
Kind People : -7

Hmm... Facebook de horoscope readings damn funny. hahaha.. must have hope and optimism. hahaha. OH YAR...Yesterday was the last day of Christmas.. The Twelfth Night. Mm...its all over...

2009-01-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

Today went out to Changi Village to eat. Yes I know...Sick le still go out? Never die before ar? haha.. but I promise them long time ago le. I always try to keep my promise. So when I promise something, I try to keep it. So anyway...we went there to eat...seafood. hahaha. nice but ChompChomp nicer :P We all walked around and joke around, the wind was damn nice. heh. I think my stomach was not happy tho. Felt bloated the rest of the evening >.<
Mm...fever's gone. I'm alright le.

"I want to confirm things within me..."

2009-01-02T19:15:00.002+08:00

Sooo... This is my class bbq's pics. There are about 50++ but i think i just shall post abit... hahaha.

These are the girls that went. hahaha.

Err... Dunnoe who is this. *ahem ahem* Aiyah..

CLASS PICTURE!!! EH?! Bladdy bottle block my face >,<

All eating. wahaha

The food cooking.

All in all the bbq that day was great. hahaha. Back to today, had to went back to school for rehearsal. Din feel all that well this morning. Now feel better. Fever seems to be gone, don't think I feel all that nauseous. Okay la. Feel better. Hahah. however, today nearly got run down by cars. Yep. carS. More than one. hahah. cross road while thinking about something can be dangerous. oh well... :P

2009-01-01T18:02:00.005+08:00

Perhaps I really think too much. But I think cos im confuse about one thing.. haha.. it will make or break something. oh dear... I feel worst off... fever went up and now down with nausea. zzz..
I hope mei feels better. So much projs to do, cannot afford to fall sick leh. Take care yea? LENG YANG AR!! =P

2008-12-30T00:45:00.001+08:00

I GOT MY PAY TODAY!!!!! xDD

2008-12-30T00:17:00.002+08:00

Today E65b bbq was fun!!! cant say its a class bbq cos not everyone there. still...Fun tho it was just the few of us X) Shall post pics the moment I get them. talked and laughed alot. ahaha. Okay la, didn't stay over in the end. quite sad but I think its better in the end.

Ho hum.. fever went back up!!! haha... X.x

2008-12-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

Today = Sick, Hot, Bored. Add a lil zombie fest for fun.

No medicine for me please. Mum will worry. Don't tell her I sick. Shh.. Tml going for class bbq. At area F pit 66. As good as going back to the same place at carmen's party. haha..

What To Do?

2008-12-28T00:50:00.002+08:00

Today was...alright I suppose. Glad to see the rest of them again. But...I dunnoe... I still feel down... :( I think I might have made the biggest mistake in my life.. I mean.. Oh man.. How the hell could I have made such a mistake.. :(( Right now...Im so conflicted... I actually became sick :/ Haiz...I really don't wish for this to continue... howhowhow... :(((

2008-12-27T08:32:00.002+08:00

24th dec - Christmas Eve
Enjoyable dinner with family and had a great party after that at my friend's place, had a xmas wish come true there. Just a lil wish. Still happy. Mood was great.

25th dec - Christmas day
Went from one end of Singapore to another. Took many a taxi that day. Mood still happy. Cos I made people happy. Lunch/brunch/early dinner? was nice. Aunt's food was superb as usual. Curry, soup, spring rolls.. Mm...Beats any turkey dinner =P

26th dec - Boxing day aka Post Christmas Party
Er... Party was great. Nice food, drinks, people, atmosphere. Mood was actually kinda angry and upset in the end :/ based on a something and a little of another different thing after that, even drinks couldn't help me. Upset and angry. Nahh... Shall not say more.. Suffice to say, that night brought back a few of the past... haiz... 2 conversations, 2 sentences, 2 different feelings, a whole night screwed :/

Hopefully today's Carmen party will be fun. Happy 18th Carmen!!! okay la... her bday on the 29th but today celebrate. hahahahaha...

2008-12-22T19:55:00.002+08:00

Today was an enjoyable day shopping. Basically walked around bugis that area. Haha. Supposedly was to buy xmas presents for some people. Of cos I was not alone la. Had good company with me to make this experience enjoyable. Hahaha. We walked and walked and walked. Saw alot of nice things but not suitable for presents. Went to penisular shopping centre cos someone wanted to get skinnies. I saw this freaking nice hoody man. It was plain black, nice material, not too thick and the price oso very good. $45. No money T.T wanted to buy. I got a blue and brown hoody but no black. All the colors start with "b" hor? LOL!!!! *ahem* anyway...we then walked to bugis junction, then to street then back to junction. LOL. quite fun la. Saw alot of things. It was damn crowded for a monday = =" oh yar... at a traffic light just right outside St. Andrew's Catheral, there was this small little band playing. It was damn funny. Sounds like a comedy hor? Mr bean. HAHAHA. *ahem* *drink coffee*

From what I learn just now, this is called... FATED!!! :P

2008-12-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

Nothing shall spoil my xmas mood. Everything is out, I'm relieved, and I'm looking forward to xmas. I watch 2 touching movies today, "Bruce Almighty" & "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium". They are such good movies to watch, full of meaning. So heartwarming XD

I hope seeing you will make me feel better. Just have to be patient...

2008-12-19T12:52:00.002+08:00

TOP 3 THINGS THAT PISSES ME OFF (not according to any ranking/not for anyone in particular either) :

1) People lying to me. Say things but never do.
2) Keeping things from me. I HATE & let me emphasize, H A T E it when I got to hear about certain things from people rather than from the main person.
3) Last minute-ness. I wait & wait & wait then people call say cancel. OR, damn happy & wanna go that time, people say can't. Got many more examples.

So pardon me when I still get angry even if you tell me your reason. Sure, I believe you, just cannot believe you cannot tell me EARLIER! So do forgive me when I tell almost everyone to FUCK OFF when I get pissed. I don't like to tolerate this kind of nonsense any more. I HATE being the nice guy & just get taken ADVANTAGE of sometimes. So have a FUCKING GOOD DAY!

2008-12-17T18:53:00.002+08:00

Hmm... Today I cooked dinner again. Practiced my shepherd/cottage pie. Wasn't that bad. haha. it turned out pretty good since I did not have the specific tomato sauce ( cos the one we had expired -.- ) and had to improvise instead. The mash was a lil more loose den I thot it would be after the baking. But boy was it good. Tender meat, good taste and not too heavy. the almost perfect dinner. Almost. Shall post up a pic or 2 on how it looked. haha. Have to practice practice practice..

2008-12-17T02:23:00.001+08:00

I have this urge to laugh. Don't get me wrong. Its a laugh of hopelessness not of joy. The kind of life where u just give up in so many things. heh. A majority of my post never seems to be happy. Okay la.. I got plenty of happy things in my life thanks to certain people/person. But still.. Oh well.. Joy to the world~ lalala...

2008-12-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

Lets see...Dragon's party was okay.. Food was great...atmosphere was.. eheh~ soso. Had beer, mixes and wines. It was not bad. Though tht night was particularly great for me.

I mean.. come on la. If you truly respect, then tell me what has ever happened. If you aren't proud of doing it, then why does the whole world know EXCEPT ME??? I understand now how it feels like to found out things tht almost everyone else knows about except me. Being famous for the wrong reasons make me so angry. I find it so hard to accept. Is this really how I am being respected? By keeping me in the dark? Come on. We known each other for years. Have I done anything to really deserve that? Haiz... I'm not angry now. Trust me. I just don't know what to do. This year end has nothing but saddness and disappointment. I'm tired...

God, let me rest. Give me the satisfaction of having a fruitful slumber and not waking up unless I'm really needed... Give me the peace that my soul needs, the love it requires, the company it craves and the forgiveness it seeks. May the people I love be more truthful to me and look after them dear Lord, even though they disappoint me so much at times, I still love them and want You to protect them. Give me the love to forgive and forget, the strength to protect and the courage to stand by them always. Thank you Lord. Amen.

2008-12-11T08:21:00.001+08:00

BLEAHHH. Sick to the stomach. Sheesh. Sometimes I wonder how I can stomach things. *Gack!!!*

2008-12-10T09:46:00.001+08:00

PP WAS GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xDDD MEGA THANKS TO MY BIG LUCKY STAR!!!! AHAHAHAHA!!!!

2008-12-09T22:05:00.003+08:00

Today is the best damn day. I couldn't be any happier XDD Someone plucked lucky stars for me and i finally got my new specs. hahahaha. I love my lucky stars. The sweetest thing anyone has done for me =)

See the stars? They were plucked from the heavens =P My friend is so sweet. I love her XD
See the specs? Mine. Finally got a one with big lens =P hahahaha.

2008-12-08T18:48:00.001+08:00

*AHHHHHCHHHOOOOOO* *sniffle* =(

2008-12-08T09:16:00.001+08:00

" The troll witch doctor beckoned me to come. He grinned as I walked closer to me and said," Come here child. I'm gonna knock your head off!!!" and started swinging his voodo stick at me. Apparently I brought him the wrong ingredient, causing him much distress when the spell backfired and an insanely huge amount of rabbits came running out of his hut. I still have a lot to learn when it comes to the arts of a witch doctor. I have about another 5 or more "jobs" to learn when I'm done with this. I sigh as I ran off to get the right stuff. Bringing about armegaddeon is not as easy as I thought.."

HEHE. Yes, I got bored again. Another lil' something from what I thought off... Hmm..nth much happened recently. I just finished a job invigilating SAT exams, hoping to get cash by Xmas. Argh... Imagine this... A broke Santa. Omg... I hope not... :/ Other than the really boring (and some what easy( SATs, nth much happened. Tch. Bored luh... Well... another 2 more days. Just 2 more days. Hope it wasn't screwed up..

2008-12-04T23:16:00.001+08:00

What a day today is. Din go school (again...) Did my proj poster instead. took about an hr or 2. slacked alot. hahaha. den after that was done. played the whole day. quite boring luh. shld have gone school. but school won't give me the inspiration needed. sheesh.. what a bother :/ Oh well... M quite tired now. Next wed getting my new specs!!! woo hoo!! XDD a totally different look. that's what i think anyway. hahaha.

2008-12-03T21:41:00.003+08:00

One word tends to change alot of things. Its called "indifference". I applied it recently to a certain aspect of my life. Long story. I mean... In the end, I guess I couldn't be bothered any more. Makes no difference to me one way or another. Any way.. I passed up my PP report last min!!! hahaha. Damn for being so lazy >.<

Oh shit. I pressed a wrong button and half my post got deleted. !@#$%^&*!!!! Ain't gonna retype that again. Stupid irritating...$%^&*

2008-12-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

Drops of Jupiter - TRAIN

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's time to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way . . .

This song rocks!!! lol. it speaks to me cos of smth ^,^ ho hum~

2008-11-30T19:44:00.002+08:00

BWHAHAHA! Feel so much better. I knew eating lots of panadol would help. Better start saving lo. Money not enough. lol. Heh. I guess i saw something I didn't like but still was curious enough to go read. hohoho. Cant blame me now could you? Curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back. And boy am I a zombie now.. Heh heh. *ahem* =P ok la.. back to seriousness. Im in no mood to do my project :/ but on a brighter side of things.. I collecting my new specs in about a week's time X) damn they are nicee!! haha. I like them alot sia. hahaha. Hmm..im looking for "Drops Of Jupiter" by Train. Anyone have?

2008-11-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

Oh wow. I actually wrote a short lil lil piece regarding a love story that came into my head. decided not to post it. why? cos its sensitive. *cough* I feel, alot more relieved that I said out alot of things tht has been kept inside for so long. wow wee....feel a lil more free. finally let go of something i held on so dear to. there is more i plan to let go as well. very soon i feel like telling it all to let go. why? cos i had enough of being so sad and having so much heartaches. I had enough liao. Thats why i've been falling ill. I dun even have money to see a doc. now i feel like just spamming panadol. oh well... You have no idea what i really let go off. Haiz...

2008-11-25T22:16:00.001+08:00

Argh...sick with fever.. no money go doctor... have to save money... spam panadol... still got sch tomorrow... bleah... drowsy spells... @.@

2008-11-25T09:45:00.002+08:00

I just have to say this. Mothers are powerful people. My mum is so powerful, her one sentence ruin my whole day yesterday and even today cos im feeling pek chek now. A huge ball of pissed off annoyed irritated pek chek.. *grumblegrumblegrumble* So today im officially not happy D:<
Somemore gt test later... and its MATH... *ARGH*

2008-11-24T19:29:00.002+08:00

Today am quite happy =) I had quite a good chat with my "panda eating" friend (!!!!) hahaha. We had nonsensical talks like always. I really enjoyed it. Can actually destress. hahaha. =) I think the one that really brighten my day was that msg i received. haha. Im so happy~ lalala~

2008-11-23T22:33:00.005+08:00

Today like nothing much happened. Went to church in the morning, came back... cooked lunch.. Daryl came to pick up his ram.. played matches of Dota and X hero siege with him.. den mindlessly surf the net till now... think im gonna sleep.. helps to clear all the thinking away... it kinda reminds me... I feel like giving up school :/

'Iguessintheend,Imightbeabletoletgoafterall.atleastallthathappenedhasmoreorlessbeenknown.iwillmoveon,nomorewouldiwanttodwellonit, andiwillhonormypromise.thoushallnotworrytoomuchaboutyouanymore.'

2008-11-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

THINGS YOU CAN DO WITH ABSOLUTELY NOTHING (especially when you're really bored)

Blink wildly and then close your eyes really tight for an interesting light show
(Amusement Potential: 1-5 minutes)
See a variety of blobs, stars and flashes. Try to make out shapes and see if your subconscious is trying to send you a message (perhaps that funny shape is saying, 'send all your money to urban75.com'?)

See how long you can hold a note
(Amusement Potential: 4-20 minutes)
Not that much fun, but it sure passes the time. Play with a friend, or try to beat your own personal best. Inhale deeply and then try and make a noise for as long as you can. Earn extra points for making your partner laugh or ending on an amusing note.

Try to not think about penguins
(Amusement Potential: 1-5 minutes)
This is especially hard, because by trying too much, you remember what you were trying to avoid thinking of. If you try too little, you end up thinking about penguins anyway.

Use your secret mind power
(Amusement Potential: 5-10 minutes)
Pick a passing by and try to use your mind power to command them do something, like drop their bag or knock into someone. The law of averages dictates that sooner or later one of your mind commands will come true, so you can convince yourself that you really have super human powers and waste even more time trying them out.

Pretend you're a robot
(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)
Walk down the street with mechanical movements, adding 'zzzzzt' sounds with each motion. Pretending to have a motor broken in, say, your left hand can add at least 30 seconds more entertainment.

Scratch yourself
(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)
Go ahead, scratch yourself now. Even if nothing itches, go ahead. Doesn't that feel pretty good?

Rate passers by
(Amusement Potential: 10-15 minutes)
Secretly award passers by marks out of ten as you go along, offering (unsaid) expert criticism over their clothing, hairstyle and footwear choices.

Repeat the same word over and over until it loses its meaning
(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)
Pick a random word out of a magazine and say it aloud to yourself until it becomes a meaningless set of noises.

Pinch yourself
(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)
What is pain? Why is it unpleasant? There's nothing physical about it - it's all in your mind. Plus, after pinching yourself for awhile, boredom will seem nice next to being in pain.

Try to swallow your tongue
(Amusement Potential: 1-2 minutes)
There's not much to say about this one. It is possible, but really stupid.

Pretend to be a car
(Amusement Potential: 5-10 minutes)
Make appropriate revving noises in your head as you walk along and add a racing commentary as you pass strangers in the street.

Make a low buzzing noise
(Amusement Potential: 15-30 minutes)
Hours of fun in libraries! Keeping a totally straight face and looking nonchalant, make a low pitch humming/buzzing noise and see who reacts.

2008-11-22T20:09:00.002+08:00

Good grief, I'm B-O-R-E-D!!! I don't feel like using my computer, just wanna do something but like don't know what to do!! Zzz... I also have to find a cure for my laziness. hahahaha. Haix...i guess smiling is getting harder by the day.. Smile or frown? Make a guess.

2008-11-21T08:11:00.003+08:00

All I had to do was to read the letter and I decided I just can't do it... Oh well.. Im a damn softie.. Haix... Despite everything that has happened, I can read the sincerity behind the letter. I should trust that the right decisions will be made all the time. A new beginning. That was what I should have gone with.. But I always seem to find myself stuck to the past. I let go of a certain past already, but another has come to haunt me... Argh.. stupid stupid...

But I made my choice after all.. After all that I know, not supposed to know and have not yet know, I won't think too much on it anymore. If I can't abandon the past, I cannot move on. I suppose the letter can be a form of motivation? Yea...it is. Time to forgive and forget McMillan. Live not in the past but in the present and hope for the future. Things might not go my way, but I guess I have to suck it up and just keep on walking. Its for the best for everyone. People say I take life easy, but only a few know how hard it is for me. Heh. Oh well...hopefully nothing happens to screw my decision. Ho hum~

2008-11-20T09:19:00.003+08:00

>:(

2008-11-19T14:27:00.003+08:00

Today was...Kinda ok. Not as happy as ytd but not too bad. Things went rather okay. faci is a bore tho. Talks alot... Felt kinda down and a lil bit pissed off when thinking and talking about PP. needed to have a good chat after that... but everyone's seems so busy... :(

I cannot image just because of that *****, everything changed. Well...at least I had prepared for it. hahaha. Another thing is that I feel that Im being played like a second fiddle. Sheesh... Hadn't thought such a thing would happen :/

Well, after everything has been settled and done for, Im pretty sure I can get back to being at peace again. Ho hum~ But I see lots of trouble before that could ever happen...

TROUBLES TROUBLES GO AWAY,
LET ME HAVE A HOLIDAY.
LITTLE MILLAN NEEDS HIS REST,
TROUBLES TROUBLES GO AWAY.

2008-11-18T19:07:00.001+08:00

Ho hum~ Today quite happy X) Cos something good happened~ hahaha. Shall not say why~~

2008-11-18T10:37:00.002+08:00

Argh.. woke up with a stomach pain.. Yesterday was heart/chest pain, today is stomach... maybe tml i wont wake up. haix.. dream only. haha.. somehow i feel a lot more better. Really takes one week for me to take and absorb every single bad news. I realized i cant do anything else any more. Life goes on... I just feel the same... I dun understand why is it that i find myself stuck in the same situation. Feeling upset, feeling hopeless, like cannot do anything like that. zzzZ...

Oh wells... I guess moving on is the best. Though its quite sian luhh.. I got this idea... to just... keep on walking. My friend told me its no point to worry about it and don't be their so and so anymore. But I cant do that? I cant just abandon them.. Poo...

Anyway.. what I thought that would happen has started. In time, I bet the gap would be way too far to do anything. A pity tho... i would lose such a precious thing...

2008-11-17T13:43:00.002+08:00

Din go to sch today. Again. Cos I did not sleep on sat night, sun morning din manage to rest, so when i knocked off at sun night, I really knocked out till this morning. Actually my mom woke me up at 5am as usual and i pretended to go to sch but in fact was literally sleep walking. she was talking to me but i dunnoe about what... hahaha. when she went to work, i fell asleep. woke up at ard 1pm. haha. still tired... Zzz.... oh yar.. I got this fricking HUGE blister. Damnation! pain sia!! ARGHHH...

..sgniht em llet ot gnilliw era uoy ylno fi ..od uoy dias uoy yaw eht em taert uoy kniht t'nod i semitemos ..od i dluohs tahw wonk t'nod yllaer i .ssenesolc fo esnes eht leef t'nod i .em morf gnicnatsid era uoy taht leef i tub uoy pleh ot tnaw yllear i

2008-11-16T08:21:00.002+08:00

Last night was quite okay. The 50th anniversary dinner was alright? Food can say wasn't that great but I'm not complaining. It was only 20bucks after all and we like chinese style dinner. *coughbuffetisbettercough* Meeting up with Faith, Shu Xian, Claudia, Lun tat, Dion, Ben and the rest was quite fun. They all look so different since Faith's birthday!! hahaha. I guess we paid 20bucks to see each other again? LOL! Too bad Manning wasn't there. Lazy la she.. But she's pregnant again!!! HAHAHA. Grats to her. Oh well... other than that, dinner was okay I suppose... :/

After that went over to a friend's place to chill. Me and my 2 buddies talked alot last night. I sure felt better after talking. Even a little bit helps. We talked, we shared, I think it was better than dinner in some way :x HAHAHA. Oh wells... I just came back not too long ago too.. Haven slept yet... Argh... Wonder if I should go school tomorrow...

Oh well.. A couple of pics I've been meaning to put up. Some little trinkets that I love XD

2008-11-15T11:18:00.002+08:00

Mm... I guess doing some things helps after all. Left sch early ytd. Could say was not in a good mood since morning. Had another restless night the day before.. Haiz.. Not feeling so bad for today la. Later going out for HIHS dinner. Planning to go jalan jalan abit first later. Need some alone time to think things thru. Hmm... Ytd was pretty boring. haha. oh wells...

2008-11-14T08:38:00.002+08:00

Sleepy.... zzz... Obviously I din have a good night's sleep.. x.x

Decision tilting between slping or going back home... Maybe going back home to sleep? Hmm...but doubt will slp well.. Zzz... Lemme consider...

2008-11-13T22:04:00.001+08:00

I CANNOT SLEEP WELL, I CANNOT EAT!!!

2008-11-13T08:15:00.003+08:00

I had this dream...

" I opened my eyes and there I was, standing on a cliff's edge overlooking a plain green field that seems to stretch as far as the eye can see... On that very edge, I saw images of everyone I knew. I saw their ugliness, I saw their beauty, I seen how they are fake themselves, I saw all their true personality that has yet to been seen...I closed my eyes..

And opened them only to be in a huge room. In front of me were many screens. Each screen showed the life of every one I knew. Their past, present and futures. I saw all their possible fairy tale endings, all their possible ends as well. I closed my eyes and pictured on those I want to see...

I opened my eyes and there were only a couple of screens left. They showed the life of the people I love. I reached out and viewed the one to my left. I saw all the hardships, the pain, the bad decisions, the impulsiveness, the needs, the wants, the heartbreaks, the hearts that was broken, and many other things. I teared at the all the sadness, all the pain, and laughed when I show happiness. I realized that there are many things I was not told off. I felt sad. I felt disappointed. Maybe one day I would know the real reasons behind all this. I did not want to be angry. I turned to my right...

The screened show another life. Another life filled with many heartbreaks, much pain and tolerance. I seen many things that I knew, many others that was I did not. I saw much change as it progressed. Just as the previous one, I felt the same. I closed my eyes..."

And woke up with a start. Apparently my younger bro nudged me awake. He got awaken by my alarm but I did not seem to hear it. bwahaha. Anyway...quite an interesting dream huh? Of course there were alot more things but... rather not say. I really guessed it correct when I said I was gonna a lil bit emo for the whole weeks. Uh oh... lol. Back to class.

2008-11-12T15:09:00.002+08:00

#$%^&* facilitator today damn nice leh. Ji siao me the whole day. Zzz. He dunnoe i pek chek enough. Grrr.. nvm. Not his fault. Hmm.. Never felt real anger in such a long long time. Recently got damn alot of angry posts. Well... guess i am. Argh... HEADACHE!!!

2008-11-12T08:03:00.002+08:00

Argh... Sinking into 'Extreme Tired Mode'. Been thinking about alot of things. About this and that...and that and this... Argh.. I just really want a day off. Just take a day to spend with someone and go have fun. No troubles to think about. I'm not trying to run or ignore it, I just need a new fresh and alert mind. See my grey hairs? Zzz.. school is another problem. Rar! aiya...no mood into that. I really wish that one day I will get to hear every single thing that is being kept from me. Better to be soon. At least if I know everything in one day, it wont be so bad.

Oh guess what.. i FAILED my proj. There is a redo on the 10th dec but i SWEAR the assessors will be the same. Argh.. maybe its depression im sinking into... :(

2008-11-10T14:31:00.002+08:00

Just cannot stop thinking about everything. Its getting to me. Im so fucking worried, angry and just so helpless. Im afraid if I don't try to express it out, I'll take it out on the next person who tries to be funny with me. Haix.. i guess i really am gonna be emo for the next few weeks. Argh..I hope not.. i hate being emotic. hah! wth. argh. okay. once i get every thing confirmed, I will forget everything. Things wont change how i treat you all. I swear on this. But please don't keep things from me. Am i really that intimidating? Haix...

2008-11-10T11:19:00.002+08:00

I'm damn sad now.. I really wanna know the truth.. Please don't lie or keep things from me.. It hurts more if I find out things from other people... So many things to think about... : '(

2008-11-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

Getting hit by bad news from the 2 ppl u love so much isnt exactly a nice thing.... But i gotta move on for their sakes.. Love them both too much la... they're better than real family. I will be happy for u since u are happy, shall not dwell too much upon cos what has happened has happened. Be happy for both and just move on. But one thing im truly happy is that they trust me enough to tell me the truth. even though it hurts like hell... :'( for that i love them even more.

2008-11-07T15:28:00.002+08:00

Right about in sch now.. Din go for lesson but came for UT. came abit too early but dun care luh. I got back my phone!! wahahahaa. finally. Rather tired nw.. Zzz

Yesterday was fun. I rushed off to buy my daughter's slippers in the afternoon from my aunt's place. At first thot can collect my phone, but then half way realized tht i needed the form they gave me and the battery cover, the mem stik.. so went to get it today instead. Any hoo... I took the train the somerset b4 walking to heeren. Almost forgotten where heeren was. hahaha. haven been to town in quite awhile. okay luh..i was there on wed.. but it was only to a hotel beside plaza sing! other then plaza sing, i din go explore anywhere else. ahaha. no life la me... -_-"

Any way.. I rmbed my daughter told me the shop was beside hmv either 2nd or 3rd floor... i looked at all the shops beside it on both floors. haha. in the end found the shop. Unfortunately got alot of slippers there.. i din noe which one she wanted!!! haha. tio stun abit. stared at the slippers for 5 mins b4 deciding on the nicest looking one. it had a smiley cut out in the middle of the slippers!! its a pair of happy slippers. lol!! it looked the nicest anyway. it was a pity they only had white color for a size 6.. if not would have bought black.. but unfortunately it was the wrong one.. =.=" she loved it anyway XD

On my way back, decided to buy her foundant chocolate. 2 pieces. From beard papa. Damn delish. Gave her both. Met daughter at ard 6plus b4 having dinner with her at ljs. We talked and talked and later went to a void deck to cont talking. After not being in contact with her for so long, it felt so G**damn good to just talk to her again. After that went back home, bathe, sleep. so damn tired... Hopefully we can find the time to go out again. Family outing. hahaha.

2008-11-04T11:12:00.000+08:00

RESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESSRESTLESS

That explains how I'm feeling right now. I would want to go home. Argh. nownownownownownow. RAR!!! Hmm.. I feel like eating seafood. Zzz... Manhattan Fish Market. Sounds interesting...looks interesting...considerconsider...hmm.. should i go try...? Advice anyone?

2008-10-30T23:29:00.002+08:00

MY PP PRESENTATION OFFICIALLY SUCK BALLS, EGGS AND WHATEVER!!!!!! FUCK LA!!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-29T00:09:00.009+08:00

I COULD NOT HAVE FELT ANY MORE RELIEVED & SO MUCH BETTER!!!!!! I realize that to have talked to the priest about my problems, I felt so much better. When he said he will pray for me, I just felt free.. I guess even though I do not know the priest well, I know that he will do it. I guess its like a touch of a little kindness? His advice was also well needed. I'm starting to see things a lil' better. Maybe no more doom and gloom for me. But I guess I gotta work it cos I still have conflicts. I realize I don't like to tell other people much cos I always think they will never understand. Skeptical or Cynical, which ever you call it, I'm kinda like that. Oh well... the main thing is...I DON'T FEEL SO DEPRESSED ANYMORE!!!!

On the lighter side of things, My daughter's back :) not that she went anywhere... we just haven talked in a long time.. Really missed her.. well...after O's I'm bringing her out to eat. My treat. All the best for your O's!!! I will pray for you XD

That's it for now. Lalala~

2008-10-23T15:19:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought I lost my gift, it proved me wrong. Its a good thing. I like my gift. But sometimes I wish it were wrong about certain things. I mean...how to tell myself " Good job for guessing bad news for you!" - -" ridiculous. oh well... I long ago accepted such things. Live and let live.

2008-10-23T08:16:00.001+08:00

I LOST ALL MY CONTACTS!!! So don't blame me when the first thing I reply you is ' who the hell are you' or something less rude :P

Well, that's the most exciting thing so far. My phone seemed spoiled but updating it made it fine again. 'Cept now I lost all my contacts. That's it. Why you still reading this? Go go. When something else more exciting happens I shall post it. Like when a snail pops or something. No worries.

2008-10-09T14:10:00.005+08:00

Whoa... Its been about....3 weeks since my last post? heh. Alot of things have happened.. to me that is. No, nothing I would really wanna write about cos its all personal. A few people would understand why. I've been thinking alot, like really really alot. So many things have happened to me, alot of them since have added pressure. I feel like I got too much of a burden to bear. Does anyone know what it's like to have a heavy heart? I think quite a few of you guys know I don't like to talk about how and what I'm feeling. The reason is because I know that the majority will never understand how it feels like.

Heh...all it takes is a few months and everything all seems so dark for me again. When I think about it, I realize that for more than 3/4 of my life, I've felt alone. When I reminisce of being a young kid again of age 5, i really miss those moments. When I would hold my father's or mother's hand while walking, feeling secure and knowing that they will always be there for me, I wish those moments would never end... Unfortunately the fates are cruel. Throughout the years as I grew older, I slowly begun to feel that my parents are bias towards my brothers. From then on I know that the certain things I done was just to get attention from not only them but from others as well. Heh.. When I think about it, I feel stupid. Go Figure.

Well, I've been reading other blogs and I realize that there are so many blogs that portray happiness and joys in life. Lucky... Here and there, my friends all got their own clique or peeps to hang out with, to share joys and laughter and even pain. Heh... I can read their post and even smile sometimes. Because they have good friends around. However, there are some friends whom aren't that lucky. These people are just a handfull. Life full of pain and headaches. For them, I empathise with. Really. I understand how is it like to be unable to talk to your parents about your problems because sometimes you know they can't help you. I know what it is like to have no one close to talk to or no one that understands you. How hard is it to live in this world when you are all alone, when you feel no one bothers about you, when you disappear and no one will care.

Heh...I still feel this way. I keep on wondering if I disappeared or died, would anyone really care after awhile? I feel so scared to let people close to me because I am afraid they will die or go away just as I feel close to them. So right now I am scared. That one day God will take my mum away all of a sudden. Not of old age but of other things. If that day were to happen, God will only know what I will do.

For now, I just take the comfort in knowing that cooking still makes me happy and forget all my troubles. Reading, writing and person a little scenery viewing helps too. Best would be if i can get a cookie every day. then i will be drunk in them ^ ^

2008-09-18T20:46:00.000+08:00

Can't feel that gap? Cos I can and I don't like it X(

2008-09-12T08:08:00.003+08:00

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?

Yesterday was pretty ok. Had my first Consumer Psychology lesson. Was kinda interesting and fun. The faci was french and old. maybe that's why he's so long winded...hmmm... hahahaha. I watched 4bia yesterday in class. Not bad leh. First story was like an appetitizer, second one is to gross and shock you, third makes you relax a bit (cos funny mah) and the last one is the real shocker. haha. go watch!!

After school I went to Compass to accompany my friend go buy a marriage gift for his friend. Then we went to eat SUBWAY! WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Finally they have one Subway near my place. God is good and He listens to my prayers XDD Eating the fresh Sub made me happy. hahaha. what would have made my day was the freshly baked cookies. but i didn't have the cash to buy.. And they were just coming out fresh from the oven. T.T freshly baked chewy double chocolate/white choco macadamian. Sigh..

Slept pretty much ok last night. Hence the lyrics i put up. haha. Digital Love by Draft Punk. It more or less sums up what i dreamt =x hahaha.

Help the economy!!! Buy me a cookie.

2008-09-09T20:58:00.002+08:00

*yawn* Today's like an other day. Quite a bore. =/ Mm...at least my faci's nice. Mr Chris Thomas. School hasn't been exactly what I expected.. It has not been like last semester... Haix.. Life's Never Fair.. Best part is that with only 125 people in the course, which means only 5 classes, my chances of getting in the new class with a friend is quite high right? NOT!! I landed up along. ARGH!!! haix.. oh well... That's that. can't really complain.. no point.. !@#$%^&*

2008-09-08T08:49:00.000+08:00

New blogskin!! I like!! lol. In e christmas mood. XD

2008-09-07T17:39:00.002+08:00

I'm well again. YAY!!!

I got to redo PP. NO!!!

How I feel : Want to jump X.x

basically it sums up everything. i hope my PP is dead now.. oh ya... my current class is nice. Need to know them more. mm..

2008-09-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

Argh...when can i get well again.... X.X

2008-09-01T08:09:00.007+08:00

LoL. It has been a long time since i posted anything. well.. i got some pics from Faith's bday party. so i'll just let the pics do the talking X)

We ended off with this pic. This was supposed to be an emo pic but guess most of them had to smile. Hahaha. In the end, we all had fun XDD.

2008-08-30T00:57:00.002+08:00

Wow... haven been posting in awhile. Oh well...things hasnt been "great" exactly.. PP has me all frustrated and anxious ( gonna have a heartattack soon... ), found out about my class and realized im alone...argh... pek chek until wanna die... thank God for my friend's bday party. Mucho nice X) haha. at least i had fun there. Shall post pics when i recieve them XDD

GLAD YOU ENJOYED YOURSELF FAITH!!! YOU'RE EIGHTEEN!!!!!!!! XD

2008-08-14T01:37:00.008+08:00

T.T the last day of being together with e65e has ended. so sad... im gonna miss this class. All the crazy things that happened and the joy and laughter we all had will be missed. All the viwawa-ing and the more recently Friends watching, haix... why must we all change class...

Sheena was nice enough to bake for us oreo cheesecake. It was Delish!! haha X)

Sheena's mighty cheesecake!!

Not even Mr Alan Leong could resist. =P

Look at us go!!!

*Munch Munch Munch*

*muncho*

Smile!!! Starting from the left : Sheena, Edith, Linette

Our class baker, Sheena!!!

The lot of us leaving to catch Journey To The Center Of The Earth!!!

Leonard and Sheena

Me n Leonard. Wth is with the face???!!!

The lot of us after the movie ^^ Starting from the left: Me, Santhiya, Jeanice, Linette, Jin Man
Photographer: Edith Tan Yi Hui. hahaha.

Middle: Thats Edith!! Photographer: Me (obvious right...)

Outside the art shop in plaza Sing.

DINNET TIME!!!!!!!!

Yummy Yoshinoyaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

Everyone's enjoying themselves!!

eeeyerr jeanice. eat properly!! XP hahaha

Linette busy eating :x

This looks alot like mine... Before the vegetable avalanche occured..

Edith & YiYin X)

Jeanice, Edith & Linette!!!!

Huge Chuppa Chuppa Lollipop & my all time fav, COOKIE MONSTER!!!

We had Gelare after awhile. Half price on tues! ^^v

MINE!! Chocolate and Apple Pie Crumble. Delish!!

Santhiya's. Cookies and cream!!! An all time classic XD

YiYin's. Soy Chocolate Obsession. New flavour to excite your taste buddies. LoL.

Linette's and Jin Man's. Raspberry Sorbet and Banana!! 100% fat free and full of fruity goodness. LoL.

We all had fun on that day. Journey To The Center Of the Earth was nice, dinner was nice, after shopping was nice too. I'm sure gonna miss this class... =( hopefully we can all meet up even after we all are in different classes XD

2008-08-02T23:04:00.003+08:00

today went out with Sanjay, Allan and Darren for dinner and starbucks kopi. hahaha. we ate at bedok's Aston. Not bad but i think botak jones better. lol. but hey..still worth it. X)
Twisted my leg yesterday when going home. Zzz..so damn sian. cant walk properly. so today before meeting the guys went to a chinese sinsei to bandage my leg. See the pic. its not a sock hor. lol. damn sian..had to limp all the way around here and there. pain like fuck too. but its getting better. X)

I have a comment to make about Singaporeans. I mean, i was LIMPING in the MRT and no one tried to offer me a seat. like wtf?! i noe la...a young man like me can tahan rite? u try having a fucked up ankle n STANDING for half an hour. NOT A SINGLE PERSON TRIED TO OFFER ME A SEAT. They all RUSHED to get seats of their own. wa seh.. please la. There is a person with an injured leg STANDING. I mean seriously...if at least ONE person offered me a seat, i would be ever so grateful. But now i think that people nowadays lack kindness. Every single one thinks about themselves. I swear the world should end right now. What's the best part about this whole thing, my injury is an internal one. Thanks to all those heartless motherfuckers, my leg just got worst and i am supposed to take out the bandage tml. _|_ _|_

2008-08-02T01:25:00.003+08:00

Well..basically me, yiyin and jin man went to Raffles City Starbucks to do PP. I had to sit near some guy for about an hour just to pressure him to move away (which he did after a while. we needed that power plug >.<) after which Yiyin came n then Jin man not long after. We surprisely manage to do our PP. hahaha. we had a great day la. hahaha. oh yea...FINALLY bought my ficking bagpack. UNFORTUNATELY, it costed waaaaaay over my budget..BUT FORTUNATELY, its cos of the quality. so ok la.. understandable. haha. the bag is considered the most expensive thing ever bought with my own money. haha. oh boy..-.- need to save now..

Oh ya. i sprained my ficking ankle while on the way home today. And now it hurts like an elephant stepped on it.. best part is tml im going out to town. and then to bedok. whoopie.. im gonna get a dead leg.. -.-

"Why did I have all these feelings again? Gah! What's the point...? I had enough disappointmens in my life. And I'm afraid of losing someone I care about again... I just can't..."

2008-07-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

This is a damn funny vid. A lil small...but still u can watch. XD

2008-07-28T07:56:00.002+08:00

GArghh!! damn tired and sleepy with a stomache..x.X

Nothing much happened for the last few days =/ i now have 4 free GV movie tix that has to be used by 31st july. hmm...tried to watch the dark knight on sat. Freaking everywhere all had the good timings sold out!! even GV vivo GOLD CLASS sold out. EVERY SINGLE TIMING!!! ALL THE WAY TILL MIDNIGHT!!!!. ZZz..today ain't gonna be a good day...

"All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldnt say"

2008-07-23T16:01:00.001+08:00

Koped this post from my fren n edited it. Lazy to write la. hahahaha =P

= I'm going to be starting a blog where I post recipes. I'm doing it with a friend, Daryl, for those who know. So far he's the only one on the team other than me.

The blog hasn't been created yet but I expect it to be done when the sem break starts. Keep checking here.

Ok so what is blog about?

Like I said above, it is a recipe blog whereby Daryl and I will post recipes that we came up with, or we found. Of course, the recipes will be tested before we actually post it so we know that it is edible by humans.

ENLISTING GUINEA PIGS!! SIGN UP NOW!!

Like I said, keep checking here if you're interested in either joining the "team", or koping our recipes.

As a parting note: The key to cooking good food is to make the recipe yours. Go figure. =

Basically thats it. I think when sem break starts, i will be doing a hell of alot of cooking PLUS PP. i believe i will be damn damn busy. So..any guinea pigs interested for my cooking? ^^

Lots of love. That's my secret ingredient X)

2008-07-19T18:48:00.007+08:00

Yesterday after school was quite fun. Me, James, YiYin and JinMan went to the Prata House. After which we went to Far East Plaza to find JinMan her fake hair. lol. However, we shopped more than that. Yiyin wanted to get a waist belt so we all just looked around. Mainly the girls did the shopping. Lol. Even though only there was only 4 of us, we had quite some fun X) it was much better than that morning. Felt alot better after that ^^ some pics to show what happened. lol =P

<-----Me <-----JinMan <-----James <----YiYin <---Prata House? LOL!!!
<--Teh tarik*2 + Teh Ping + Milo Dinosaur (roar!)
<--FOOD!!! 8 plain, chicken & mutton curry. YUM!!!!!!
<---Roti tissue!! Freaking nice. LoL.
<--- Doing a sales pitch??!!!
<---Yiyin and Jinman. See the pretty girls X)
<--James and JinMan
<--Me and JinMan
Pretty girls again. lol.
Group Picture!! (im smiling like an idoit -.-)

Some other random pictures. X)
<-- Dinosaurs aren't extinct!!!
<-- look at the extra posing behind O.o LOL
<--Open wide!!
<-- Hot tea. Drink with caution.
<--DIE PRATA DIE!!! hahaha.
<-- Mmm...delicious ice cream ^^

There was something funny that we saw yesterday as well. There was this couple. They say across the fall from us in the plaza from the fountain there. Let's just say we couldn't tell who was what. People were staring at them from above and below. While we just laugh our arses off. hahaha. That was all. Little people but a whole lot of fun X)

2008-07-17T08:38:00.002+08:00

"All these blabbering and idiotic actions are just a thick shell to let you not see the softy inside. Get use to it. You won't understand. No one will. Not even You." -annoyomus character.

2008-07-14T13:45:00.007+08:00

This all happened at Saturday, 12th july ^^ this is e65e. we went to eat at sakura. Guys are me, james, leonard and adli(aka chichak man. hence the superman pose =x ) well.. just scroll through the pics and let them tell you the story of our oh so fun outing on tht day X) i shall pose up individual pics and intro them next time. hahaaha. X)

2008-07-10T15:15:00.004+08:00

Ooook... this was on tues. only 4 of us went out to eat dinner.. so sad. supposed to be a class outing but so many din come... =( james was sad )= lol. Oh well.. i think we had quite some fun la. haha. so some photos. zzz. been posting photos lately..
drinks from pastamania. MAMA MIA!!
James. Creamy chicken. Garlic bread and large coke.
Me. Takopasta. Small Coke and chicken soup on the side.
Some banana chocolate pizza thing. Jin man and Geraldine shared this. Both had coke.

That's Jin man.

haha. so yea. tht was tues. I think there was more pictures regarding the waffles we ate. Super nice ^^

Now for something i did cos of boredom. and...the fact it was kinda interesting. =P

You Were a Lynx

You are a great knower and keeper of secrets.

A bit psychic, you can bring out hidden truths.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

2008-07-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

i am bored. haha. but i'll be damn if this isnt quite accurate.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2008-07-06T23:20:00.003+08:00

This was all taken on 7th july. Went out to celebrate Matt's birthday. Was fun despite it being just a small group =) ( n despite me being a lil sick )
Fun at the escalator. Weee!!
taken on the bridge at Heeren. It can change color!!
Really ugly pic of me. Fat faced!! LOL!!
Err...need i say more? hahahaha.
ok. 2 people now. i think i can see his nose hair... >.<
V-shaped!!
V-shaped 2!!
me reading a menu.
ok. i noe i dun look part of the photo... but still... =P
Three pretty gals. Another one was sitting on the other side.
i was shocked at my pizza..
Ok... so i really cant be in photos... = =""

It was fun to hang out with these guys again. it has been a rather long time. haha. we ate swensens, had an earthquake, then went out to heeren to look see look see. hahaha. as you can see...had plenty of photo shots. *snap!!* Was exhausted at the end of the day, but it was fun. furthermore...i had chocolates ^^ thats about it on sat. Sun n mon nothing much. still felt sick. ok. better get back to lesson.

2008-06-27T08:37:00.002+08:00

Mm...yesterday was kinda fun. hahaha. had my birthday song yesterday. Classmates were nice. Had fun too. Market sensing is getting more & more boring unfortunately... I think i would want to reformat my lappy.. it seems to be dying.. can't play my WOW... =(

2008-06-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

Oh well.. today's my birthday. Happy birthday to me. yay. technically wasn't what i thought out to be. felt nothing special. So im 18 now. cool. but what else? i don't feel anything exciting or special anymore. damn.. A real special thanks to all that remembered my birthday. You guys made me feel it's my birthday at least. Though it would have been nice to get a lil' something... hmm.. okok. im asking for too much. hahaha.
something seems to be wrong with my lappy... just don't know what.. just like today.. i feel that something is missing but i can't seem to put my finger on it... hmm.. oh well.. happy birthday to me...

2008-06-23T20:00:00.002+08:00

Today's sales competition can be described as... GG, PEWPEW DIE!! oh man..

hopefully it gets better tml...

2008-06-15T13:48:00.002+08:00

Wow.. its been bout..erm.. very long since my last post =P haha. ok la. not that long right? anyway, to recap, today is the last day of my 2 week hols. last week was filled with the young GEMS camp that was quite fun. This week was on the confirmation camp of my church. it was more enjoyable and fun. so my 2 weeks was filled with facilitating camps. did i mention that? okok.. i was facilitating camps for the past 2 weeks.

I kinda enjoyed the confirmation camp. the students were not enthu at first, but lucky for me, they slowly gradually got to know each other and became more active (thanks to me. HAHAHA. *cough cough*) the facils are also very friendly. haha. they were all nice and funny. At first i thought the camp will be not so good for me due to some bad experience... but it turned out ok. i was kinda glad that things had turn out for the better and that i took the courage to volunteer as a facil. thanks to this experience, i guess i can be better for the upcoming sec 3 con camp. haha.

the only great big pity during this 2 weeks was that i did not have time to rest =/ i was busy the whole week and it sure as heck didn't seem like a holiday to me. sad... the worst part is that school reopens tomorrow!!! AHHHH!!!!! even worst is that there is a sales competition soon!!! AHHHHHHH!!!! oh well... got to go. X)